Friday, October 1, 2010

Responses to my last blogs, ive worried alot of souls, with MY profanity, i was wrong for that... here is one responce

"you sure use a lot of profanity. i thought i read your life is changing ad your learning what it means to follow god. i always figured there would be a difference in the way that people would talk, but you kinda just sound like the rest of us. oh well"

"God uses the foolish things of this world to confound the wise." God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. I am only who God says I am, non more non less

Your missing the point man! You can't Rip the skin off the snake. the snake must moult the skin, thats the rate it happens. The caterpiller doesn't walk around saying, Hey! someday im going to be a butterfly. He just does it. You've got to go the rate you can go! All your acts will be consecrated. I said it straight forward. The bible is not metaphor and its not a story made up to teach us how to me moral beings! Its a straight message. Im not god, im not christ. I don't try to be.. What is good and what is not good, need we ask anyone to tell us these things? What does it even mean to follow god? your delusional if your trying to follow god, god is not a father.. yes we were made in his image, but ive not wrapped my mind around that, i dont see it that way yet. he isn't some old man up in the sky! he is in everything he is everywhere, he is in all religions, all people, all societies from the beginning of time! he is desire he is the destroyer! heaven hell are all creations of him, desire, all creations of desire, you are a creation of desire! Jump, rejoice! following Christ is what you mean, also known as Yeshua(his name in hebrew), buddhas teachings have helped me comprehend how christ did what he did. Jesus says "I and my Father are one" when buddha says: When You give up attachment and you finish with the illusions, and ego. This is the place" that is the place! here and now. Just Love until you and the beloved become one! Nobody is perfect, and with the glasses you're wearing i will never live up to your standards. the great ocean of existence is a journey inward, ever in deeper and deeper and the deeper you get the more you meet truth... let go of labels, dont forget that water is even poison if we breathe it, let go of yourself.. the best things in life are truly free, singing birds and laughing bees. i learned that from Susie, its funny how little people in your life make a huge impact and then the next moment they are "gone" poof vanished liked smoke. I remember when she would walk among the flowers just appreciating the Sun, wow! appreciate the small things, let go of attachment and rejoice! I will set my house on fire because I don't need it anymore! rejoice and be here now, with me, with the world, with God! Come follow down the highway once trailed by Yeshuas golden calf!

If you are labeling people on how good or bad they are or what they believe and how they should act then you need to stop, im talking to myself rite now too. nobody is perfect, nobody will fulfill you or show you how to live your life, thats up to you and the creator, you take your own steps and you make your own mistakes. All your acts will be consecrated. being you, in the end, is the only thing that matters. and if you think christians or religious people have it all together I swear to you they dont, take what I said in my blog about homosexuals if you must.. dig deep, be one with those words, search them for yourself! Correct me when im wrong! teach me! I was not very loving in that message, nor are they very loving by judgeing homosexuals and calling home depot telling them we are not shopping here because you support gay rites and we will make sure nobody will! Thats the way to get people to join your cult, or movement! I admit, i was rough when I wrote that, but I shook every word out. You're standing on a bridge watching yourself go by, i pitty you for looking down upon people who don't fit what you call being a "good christian" because I too am on the same boat! I often find myself on the floor weeping because of it! I respect the church because of the sacredness thats been placed on them from the people who "get it" and do believe. I think alot of bad things have happend in the name of the church and christ and therefor I shy away from it, i think people who need a church should go but for the rest of us its in our head, go to the temple. Im not saying I am a christian im not saying i am a jew, hindu, etc... I simply said I am a seeker of spiritual beauty, im not comfortable being apart of any cult or religion, whats the difference?. I am sorry. I am my own and i seek to be one with the creator. I will tell it how it is with no regrets. You too can be a seeker of love and spiritual beauty, it doesn't matter how "messed" up you are! In meditation, on drugs, on diets, ive been aware of soul and been aware of the power, god is a power we're all capable of tapping. I've made mistakes in my life, but i dont regret anything because I've learned my lesson. I will sit up in the saddle of the storm! Come On Lets Talk!

"Have we truly heard him?" (ephesians 4:21-24)

"And you will seek Me and find Me, when you search for Me with all your heart" (Jeremiah 29:13)


I personally have only found this possible through meditaion and losing my own thoughts, and ego and walking into the fire, surrender. when i am with a candle flame i am the candle flame when ii am with another being's mind and am the other being's mind when there is a task to do i am the task. its only when i reside quitely in my own hridayam that I become one with the creator he of total light and unbearable compassion. I learned how to do this from my good friend Ashley Jayne Osborn. This is how I worship God this is how i worship Yeshua

"the little girl in the picture has been my motivation and has taught me many many many things by simply being herself. she has helped take my blindfold off and face my problems just to see things how they truly are, just simple and sweet. I...t has been one big trip, to hell and back and im forever grateful for it even though it has required alot of suffering and doubt, just like Yeshua on the cross. I am blessed to ever have known that soul, and I look forward to meeting many more! You keep up the good fight yourself, sing songs of joy and peace when you are overwhelmed and don't know which way to turn!"

Tuesday, September 28, 2010



If your a Christian :: read this wake up :: homosexual

I was asked what I thought about homosexuality, here is my response...

"before you read know that I think as long as I love and seek God all is beautiful. I do not like how society tries to label everything but I understand why they do, doesn't mean I have to. I am a seeker of Love and Spiritual Beauty. Christian, jew, mormon, hindu, muslim they are all on the rite path its my job to accept them. I just know that they are also on a path they need to be on and they are doing what they think is right." zachary

Homosexuality is not for me, but I think its funny how christians get so offensive and judgemental.. I got an email about home depot being homosexual and Christians think they have to retaliate by boycott, and telling other Christians to not shop at home depot because of their views and opinions. this is so fucking insane, ridiculous even. Christians need to lose their fucking egos its called: paranoia delusions of gandeur(a delusion christians and mentally insane people get alike,,refer to a person who is in over his head, or who thinks exaggerates the amount of power and importance that he has) alot of christians i know are on a Huge Fucking Ego Trip: the messianic complex (they know all the problems of the world and everyone is out to get them, the are supposed to be a savior and tell the world about 'jesus and he is the only way and all this bullshit, no disrespect) Keep reading don't get mad..

There are no passages in the bible that deal directly with same-sex marriage, followers of the bible and other religions are mostly just fucks "like me" who make up their own rules, using passages that deal with other, related topics... They get way out of context. I can't even tell you how many times a christian has shoved a verse in my face and how I have been able to go back and prove to them they have no idea what they are talking about 1. they dont look at the culture 2. they have no idea what was going on in the world 3. they know absolutly nothing about the man that wrote the book, where he was what he was doing, what he was thinking and or going through when he wrote it. I've studied the bible for years upon years. Thats another thing though. Christians, you with your ego, quit shoving verses in peoples faces, if you live like christ you will personally go to them and say "hey do you need to talk, I see your having a hard time" that is love you bastards.

God says "it is not good for man to be alone" God stated verse 18. God is all for committed relationships and to say that homosexuals should not form committed relationships is basically saying that it is good for people to remain alone. that would be a direct contradiction of God's statement, so your saying God is a liar.

Isolation is a sickness.. You and I were not designed to face life alone, yes god created man to be with women, and he also greater girls who were born with dicks and men born with breast.. it might make it hard to multiply or "to be fruitful and increase in number" genesis 1:28. God's plan was for Adam and Eve to form a heterosexual relationship and have children obviously and im so down for that! Gods plan expects the same behavior of at least some of Eve and Adam's descendants. But it would not necessarily apply to all individuals. not everyone is created the same way, doesn't mean sex is out of the picture for them, thats like gods gift to humanity and to take that away from them is saying "no you can't have it, you're not human" We are all Gods children, every color race or religion. sexuality in all varieties is a gift from god. It helps people of all sexual orientations to form partnerships with another person and become all that they are capable of becoming. Im just saying that the Genesis text only refers to a certain majority of people, not everyone. gods plan for society, but not universally applicable to tall. Like the girls with dicks. they to are not meant to be alone. Isolation is sickness.

Christians and other religions are basically a heterosexual Cult, judgmental, hate, control... You, christian go look at the defintion of a cult, if you are so worldly you would know you are indeed apart of a cult. not very much like Christ huh? break away, be real. Im sick of the heterosexual cults and christian boys and girls I know laughing at homosexuals they treat them like shit they judge them and damn them to hell, im sick of it, they arn't God, goes back to Paranoia delusions of grandeur and messianic complex huh?. Show me where in the bible where it says marriage must be reserved for opposite-sex couples only. Im not saying I am gay, im totally for XX chromosomes. Im sick of all this control, and hate and judgement and bitterness alot of Christians I know show towards this topic. I probably shouldn't post something as honest as this because people start worring and talking shit like they know what im goin through, but sometimes the truth when it looks so Ugly can truly be a Beautiful thing, I just want to wake you up! You know who you are. What is good and what is bad, need we ask anyone to tell us these things.. Use your mind::: reality leaves alot to the imagination you know. Now give me a cigarette.

Friday, September 24, 2010


Home let me come home, home is when im alone with you.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

lazy butterlies that love

"There is only one God and He is God to all; therefore it is important that everyone is seen as equal before God. I’ve always said we should help a Hindu become a better Hindu, a Muslim become a better Muslim, a Catholic become a better Catholic."

I lose

I had lost my mind.
I lost my head for a while was off my rocker outta line, outta whack.
See I had this tiny crack in my head
That slowly split open and my brain snoozed out,
Lyin' on the sidewalk and I didn't even know it.
I had lost my mind.

Why, i was sitting in the basement when I first realized it was gone.
Got I my car rushed right over to the lost and found.
I said "pardon me but I seem to have lost my mind."
She said "Well can you identify it please?"
I said "Why sure its a cute little bugger
About yea big a little warped from the rain"
She said "Well then sir this must be your brain"
I said "Thank you ma'am I'm always losing that dang thing."

I had lost my mind

-daniel johnston


My father has schizophrenia, manic depression/bipolar and he cursed me with the same illness. Today I found out I had believed a lie for 20 years. I found out the reason he let me go was because he knew that he was unhealthy and could never be the father that I need/deserved. I hated him all these years, and i am ashamed of myself. I hope it is true that a man can die and yet not only live in others but give them life, and not only life, but that great consciousness of life. Here's to the crazy ones.

The misfits. The rebels.
The troublemakers. The round
pegs in the square holes - the
ones who see things differently.
They're not fond of rules and
they have no respect for
the status quo. You can praise
them, disagree with them,
quote them, disbelieve them,
glorify or vilify them.
About the only thing that you
can't do is ignore them.
Because they change things.

- Jack Kerouac

God save me make my craziness. I wan't my friends back